Have you ever had more month than money?  How about at the beginning of the month? Ha!  Yes that is what I am dealing with right now, it is actually quite frustrating, to say the least.  But it does lead me looking in one direction, and that is up!

I don’t know about you, but I am a recovering control freak, ok maybe I’m not “recovering” I’m “struggling”.  I am still struggling with the part about “giving it to God”, and “he will provide”, but my heart says yes and my mind says no!  I see my husband work so hard to provide for us, and it still doesn’t quite cut it some times.  But what do I do, I pray a lot.  I know this is just a season in our lives, I know God is there, I have seen Him work, I also know He has His timing… but of course I want it now!  Throughout this time of struggle it has forced me to pray all day, forced my husband and I to communicate on a different level, and is molding me in a way to make me better.  “He is the potter and I am the clay”, it just hurts a little right now, o.k., it hurts a lot!

Well tomorrow a new journey begins, bible study, with a great group of ladies.  An opportunity to “journey to my promised land”, and I can’t wait to see what that is.  the time I have the most growth and see God’s work is times like these.  I truly pray for His hand to touch my heart and change it.  I pray for all the ladies going on this journey with me, and I pray that y’all reading this will take a journey of your own, out of your comfort zone, to be molded and shaped into all God wants you to be, here in this world.  Because we all have a purpose, a divinely appointed one, it may be a hard road sometimes, but in the end, I believe it will be worth it!